I was grocery shopping when the nurse called about the CT scan. I was with Elsie, in the produce section and she was sleeping and OH how I felt that feeling like you’re floating around yourself, watching. The nurse said that the CT WAS NORMAL and I cried right there in front of the other shoppers.
As the janitor at my college always said, PRAISE-A-LUJAH-TO-YA.
I nearly woke Elsie up to tell her but then I remembered that she doesn’t speak very much English yet. So I just stared at her and let carts go by me. Then I went to get milk and bread and all the usual things.
The usual things are good.
Thank you so much for surrounding us with so much love and support again. How many ways can I say thank you? I wish there were more words.
Oh! An explanation of sorts, as far as I can tell? You see, it’s not just that Elsie has a big head or that her head grew a lot in three months. That would just be normal, like a growth spurt…the concern comes when the noggin makes a significant leap off its own curve of growth. Like on the arching chart with the little dots. Growth spurts, etc, show a more gradual increase. This was not like that. SO. I’m not a doctor, but I’m pretty certain the explanation goes something like this: The tool used to measure around a noggin, as you know if you’ve been at these appointments, is just a tape measure. Human error is HIGHLY likely. I mean, it totally depends on if they have that thing in the exact same spot each time or if it slips while measuring, etc. We all know how these things go with little ones. So often they have to re-measure length because of wiggles and stuff.
Right now I’m so relieved (and tired–we just don’t get much sleep) that I’m not sure how totally frustrated I am with that. We were very concerned because of Asher’s history and our daughter did have to go through having a CT scan (HI radiation!) and that sucks a lot, but I know my energy is better utilized in trying to get some sleep and peace rather than being really angry.
That doesn’t mean I won’t make some suggestions to our doctor and nurse though. I can do that and I can be kind and we can move on.
Peace. (and thank you again)