Just Write {16}

January 3, 2012

I don’t very often resolve to do things for the new year. I try to find the resolve every day and fail and triumph and triumph and fail.

The time does fly but sometimes I wonder if that’s just because we forget so quickly so it just seems like it when really a lot of the time it’s kind of slow. Either way, there is the illusion of fast and so fast it is.

I was writing the numbers on the wipe off calendar in the little squares inside the bigger squares and it felt like I just did this, writing July and then October and now it’s a new year. I am writing those little numbers so often. Almost every time I have to try hard to remember how many days are in the month.

The months fly by forgotten and it still says “Get Asher left-handed kid scissors” at the top of the calendar. I keep forgetting.

A few days back I started to write dreams and goals for 2012. I always hesitate to do that because I have this tendency to get over-zealous and then I end mostly only writing small numbers in small squares. So I tried to keep it simple and almost everything I wrote had to do with my family and our home and not My Own Things. Those just weren’t coming to mind. I just want to be a mother and I’m learning exactly what that word means for me. I never thought I would say this but lately I’m content with sweeping and laundering and organizing with my “free time” and doing nothing much else at all. Is there such a thing as a frenzied peace? Because in the daily grind the frantic feeling doesn’t ever stop so we just have to figure out what to do with it.

I’m guessing I might be back to feeling more angst and frustration by the next time I wipe off the calendar but that’s okay because there is just today. One little square at the corner of a bigger square and this is how just that one little number feels right now. One little number is good and enough no matter how it feels.

Happy New Year, friends.


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Jessica January 3, 2012 at 7:20 am

I need to remind myself this, that each day is just one little day in the scheme of it all. I’m surprised at how content I am to be home with the kids, even though sometimes I feel like I’m in that movie “Groundhog’s Day.”
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Jade @ Tasting Grace January 3, 2012 at 7:27 am

Lovely. Sometimes, it really is just those little numbers that matter most. Happy New Year!
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Sarah January 3, 2012 at 7:32 am

I love the idea of resolving to do something each day. Today it is finding joy in the sweeping and the laundering and the organize. Every day is different. Love that.
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angela January 3, 2012 at 8:13 am

The good thing about taking each day is that there’s so much promise in each of them. One little number at a time :)

Galit Breen January 3, 2012 at 8:21 am

Yes, I definitely know frenzied peace, and know it well.

Happy New Year, my dear friend! I can’t wait to see what 2012 has in store- here’s to more swept floors!

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Adventures In Babywearing January 3, 2012 at 8:24 am

I don’t make any resolutions outloud because maybe I think it just jinxes it. But I am really relieved it’s 2012.

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Amanda January 3, 2012 at 9:24 am

Oh mommy, I know just how you feel! There are times where I feel happy and productive and peaceful just being in my mommy role, cleaning and playing and doing laundry. It’s so weird that you would say that. Other times, I feel like those very things might just drive me to insanity. But, sometimes, it’s exactly where I need to be.
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Kori January 3, 2012 at 9:39 am

I make a point to NOT ready anyone’s posts in the mornings unless I have already posted, because I need my thoughts to be my own and now “steal” someone else’s subject or idea or whatever. Still, I am often surprised that I am not the only one writing about whatever it is. Today’s post is along the same lines as yours-weird, but also comforting.
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Kristen @ Motherese January 3, 2012 at 11:22 am

Frenzied peace. What a perfect way to say it. I know exactly what you mean and, many days, it gives me deep satisfaction.

I also know exactly what you mean about thinking about goals and realizing they’re all about “us” rather than “me.”

Wise, resonant words, as always, my dear. xo
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Sidnie January 3, 2012 at 1:39 pm

“One little square at the corner of a bigger square …”

One day at a time. Those words, echo in my heart daily. Just a day at a time, and then the next day. That’s all this life requires.
God promises us daily bread- exactly what we need for one day, each day.
The reality of that is amazing and humble.
God gives us today. He gives us enough bread for just today.
And when I lose sight of that? My world falls apart.

Here’s to getting back to daily bread, to the daily grind.
Happy New Year, friend.

For that one little square.
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SoberJulie January 3, 2012 at 1:48 pm

Happy New Year!!!!!
I love Frenzied Peace!
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Heather Novak January 3, 2012 at 3:11 pm

Oh that is my focus for 2012! ENOUGH. Just that…. and avoiding sugar, following Food Matters, getting to the YMCA three times a week, giving more eye contact with my three year old shining my sink daily….etc! LOL.
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jen January 3, 2012 at 6:47 pm

hugs for a happy filled new years.
love your writing, friend.
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Gianna January 3, 2012 at 10:20 pm

When ARE we supposed to figure out how to do the frenzied pace? I loved that sentence. I think I read it 15 times (okay maybe more like 3, but still I stopped there for a while pondering that thought!
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Christa January 4, 2012 at 8:31 am

So good to be back. Even a little late.

Happy New Year, Heather, and thanks.
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Stephanie Hanes January 4, 2012 at 5:30 pm

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. ” (Matthew 6:34) This year, I’m resolving to be more present in the everyday, enjoying the little moments while my kids are still little…because I don’t want to miss a thing. I just love the way you weave a picture with your words. Thank you for sharing – and for this Just Write on Tuesdays to freely write whatever is on our minds. I so enjoy this – it’s like free therapy for me!
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Dawnee January 7, 2012 at 3:58 am

Oh my goodness! Frenzied Peace! That is the perfect way to describe it!!

Isn’t it amazing when we take our eyes off of ourselves and focus on those around us how absolutely enjoyable it is?

I found you on the Wiegand’s Linky. :) New follower!
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