It was a hard afternoon. Sometimes I’m just struck with the heaviest feeling, my whole body going kind of weak and I’m just done. I was sitting on the bed with Asher standing next to me. He was looking up at the wall at a vintage print we have of a boy going fishing. I was sitting hunched and staring at him, taking him in and I said, Asher, I love you.
He didn’t seem to hear me because he looked right at me suddenly and very seriously said, How come you can’t see God?
That’s a good question, honey.
Mommy. Lift your head up. Look up. And ask Him.
So I did, kind of awkwardly, God, why can’t I see you? and it kind of made me want to cry.
I told Asher that I think I can’t see God because He’s a mystery, a good mystery and that what we find out about Him is always about love.
He bounced up and down then. He said, Yeah! He’s a mystery! A good one…He bounced right out of the room saying, And He blends into everything!
Everything. Even blending into the going through the motions until the heavy passes.
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It’s these “little conversations” that take my breath away. And my hunch is, it’s also these that make the mist impact.
Well done, Mama.
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What a beautiful moment. Even on my heaviest feeling days, it’s little moments like these that make me feel even just a little bit lighter.
I loved this post….thank you for your beautiful writing!
“He blends into everything.” What a gem from your wise little teacher.
Aren’t you glad you write these things down? *sigh*
Wow. Asher’s got a direct line into Him, you think? :)
Steph
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Thanks so much for hosting! I enjoy reading all the submissions each week. Have a great day!
Ah, I think someone was sending you a message through your little man!
I truly believe that our children are our teachers. Beautiful post, Heather.
Such sweet words and wisdom from a young soul. It’s amazing how a hard day can be turned around with new perspective and comfort. Loved this!
Beautiful. I love this.
Lily is four and just starting to ask about God. I find myself answering her in ways that surprise me. Didn’t realize I had this in me. :)
suzanne @ pretty swell recently posted..I let go
How can children, especially young ones, have such insight? We adults sometimes move too fast to stop and think about such things. I love when we are reminded to do so, like you son did for you.
Dara Dokas recently posted..Unconditional Love of a Dog
Goodness, sometimes they ask the hardest questions, but I am always amazed at how they always teach us about God through their child like faith! Awesome!
Jenn recently posted..In the Midst of Torrents
Out of the mouths of children…”he blends into everything.” The world feels a little tough and mean today and this is such a comforting thought.
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Oh Heather…this is absolutely beautiful. I love how little ones can remind us of such a simple truth that is so hard to remember as an adult.
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Oh my god, Heather. This is a totally beautiful piece of writing. Asking, “Why can’t I see you?” It almost made me cry, too.
Amanda recently posted..Springtime Dreams
Your kids are so intuitive! It honestly blows me away. I just love the stories you share that show their little voices.
Erin recently posted..Won’t You Be My Neighbor?
Nothing can happen with the fuzzies until you admit they are there. I have been where you are. You are doing this right!
Crying out to God even at the suggestion at your child is the best thing to do!
Gianna recently posted..I Am Going To DIE!!!!!
Oh man. A gut punch from a little boy. Beautiful.
nicole recently posted..Just Write: Words
Oh, I love that Asher. And you, for capturing this moment.
JCK (Motherscribe) recently posted..her own deshabille of horrific unkempt display
This part: “So I did, kind of awkwardly, God, why can’t I see you? and it kind of made me want to cry” got me. Real deep. It really did.
Jade @ Tasting Grace recently posted..As Spotted on the Thai Side
Heather, I’m right there with you. Though yesterday was finally a good day, I carry the “heavy” a lot. And God has a way of making me cry, too. Sending love….
And thanks for hosting this cool writing challenge. :)
Emily Waugh recently posted..Happy/Sad boy
That was a really cool little encounter with your kiddo. Love when they ask questions like that, and really listen to the answer.
Just Jennifer recently posted..How I Like Me Now
oh, that is beautiful….children often ask the most sensible of questions…
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