The weekends have been rolling through with paintbrush strokes lately. There have been many more bright yellows and reds where there had been a lot of darker things, like depression and colic. We are moving now, wheels turning down the road to places with familiar faces and isn’t it silly that I started to wonder if that would ever happen again? If we would always stand still?
You do, you know? You start to believe that “it will always be this way” whatever that way is, but it never stays. We have that one constant, in counting on change. You would think I’d be sure of it by now but I still get scared sometimes when things are hard. I get scared they will only stay hard or get harder.
But this weekend Miles had a play date and there was a pizza fundraiser and a huge indoor garage sale where I got the kids their summer clothes and other handmade lovelies. I was there all by myself for three whole hours.
On Saturday afternoon, we dropped the boys with my sister and her family and Ryan and Elsie and I kept driving all the way to Lake Elmo where I sat with Internet friends who are also {in}RL friends new and old and I breathed a little lighter, just me and other women that love friendship. Ryan took Elsie to the mall while I was there and they hung out, just Daddy and EJ, having lunch.
During a break in the event, I sat with my friend Kate while we waited in line for the bathroom. (There were stairs near the bathroom, otherwise sitting to wait would have been a little weird.) So anyway, we sat down and I want to tell you that there are a lot of ways to describe someone but the quickest way to describe Kate is that she is the kind of person that exudes such grace and kindness that you want to just rest your head on her shoulder while you sit next to her.
Really. It’s true.
It was a rainy drive both ways and two hours both ways and Elsie fell asleep and Ryan and I had two whole long conversations. That is rare these days unless we do this kind of thing and for so long now this kind of thing has been too hard to do.
It’s hard to imagine that time will slip past us and before we know it, we’ll have more of these kinds of quiet moments together. Then we’ll be looking back and Change will be saying, HA! I told you so.
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Oh sweetheart….. my {{Just Write}} this week mentions you, too.
Funny how these hearts work, isn’t it??
Kate recently posted..knee touch
Change is always there, isn’t it? And I, too, find myself believing that “it will always be this way” especially when it’s hard. And those quiet moments with the husband? So needed, and so few. Glad you had such a nice weekend.
christine recently posted..The Chase
You are so right, that once we are in a situation we feel like we may stay stuck there forever. And than life goes by in a blink. Love those car conversations with my man. We are on our way to Europe with ten days to do that. Its been twelve years since we took this kind of trip to celebrate. So excited.
Shelly Miller recently posted..When You Forget Who You Are
I felt like I would be stuck forever in the postpartum depression, like the world would keep on moving but I was just stuck. Of course, time changed and I changed but at the time it was so difficult. You really hit my heart with this one.
Semi Domesticated Mama recently posted..Post Notes: 15 Favorite Posts from April
Last week I started slipping again and almost lost heart- almost. And even though yesterday was a low one, I found my way up again today. Rounding the corner for me was finally snapping out of a daze and realizing I can let this day completely slip away, or I can do even one little thing to make it count.
Love to you, missing you a lot, too. Would love to be in real life with you soon.
Steph
Adventures In Babywearing recently posted..A Pink Pony Full Of Rocks
Oh this sounds so nice and calm. And Kate is a true gift. So are you. xo
tracy@sellabitmum recently posted..Taking Care of YOU On Mother’s Day
Those moments of being able to just breathe and find your footing again are crucial.
Love the images you invoke in this. Female friendship/IRL depth has been sorely lacking in my life.
It was great seeing you and hugging you! Such a welcoming, long time I have not forgotten you hug. Thank you, I needed that more then you could know.
I am not linking up today, :0(
But I wanted to tell you, what you said about things being hard and thinking they’ll stay hard or get harder…that is exactly where I am at right now. It is nearly a year that Rob has been out of work, it is nearly a year since we moved from the only house the kids have known. When I think back to where I was a year ago, I know I’ve changed for the good, but I also know that those feelings, those fears are just under the surface…this was hard, this was bad…will God turn this around today? How many more nights will I have to endure, before I can look both up the mountain and down to the valley…the happy medium. I am trying trying trying to choose joy, that was so profound for me during the video.
Again, Heather thank you for your tender, fierce hug. I wish I could have stayed longer and held that baby girl…maybe someday soon I still can? :0)
You know you are with a true friend when you can just be yourself and pour your heart out on almost anything . And when how time passed so fast without you knowing it.
wow so true. change will laugh at us. thank you for the reminder to soak in these moments no matter how challenging they may be.
beautifully written, as always.
melissa @ the pleated polkadot recently posted..::what He whispers when my soul is weary::
What a beautiful weekend. I know that feeling – the feeling that things will be one way forever. In that sense, change can be so comforting.
Oh change…my fickle friend. One minute good then next bad. Of course the one constant as you said … it’s always there. Waiting in the wings to surprise us. May these moments be the hint of a big change to come.
Brook recently posted..I Forgot:Just Write
Life is funny like that, change happens just when we think we are “stuck”. I know that feeling well. And change for the good can sometimes surprise us just as much as change for the not so good…
Elaine recently posted..The Puzzle
Lately our days have been full of wonder and laughter. And I have to keep forcing myself to push down the part of me that says “it’ll never last” because sometimes that gets so loud that I get distracted from the here-now.
Bridget recently posted..It’s not just the plants that are growing.
Sigh. Such a good reminder about how change is constant. Glad your change finally came. xoxo.
Although maybe if you still had a colicky baby and were sleep deprived I’d win a couple of Scramble games against you.
Becky (Princess Mikkimoto) recently posted..Expecting
My mom always says to me “Everything changes. This is just Right Now,” and sometimes I use that as a consolation that whatever is going on won’t last forever and soemtimes I take it as a warning to enjoy every moment because even the good things will change.
Jennifer – Treading Water in the Kiddie Pool recently posted..Love Poem for a Beach Baby
I could read your words forever and ever. Truly. Enjoy this day!
Rach@InHisHands recently posted..for Heather
change is always under the surface, isn’t it? almost taunting…
amanda {the habit of being} recently posted..the story of you
I’m right there with you. I’m driving in the rain. I’m looking at the change going by as it is happening. I’m wondering where to get off the highway. I’m right there with you.
Sarah recently posted..Double Rainbow
Change really is the only constant. It just happens to sneak up on you and boom there it is, good or bad.
Kristin recently posted..Just Write (11)
As everyone is saying change is constant and while I am happy to be able to experience the change with my family because it means I am alive, living and here with them I just wish change could occur at a much slower pace. I’ve been gone for so long. Weeks since I just wrote. I have missed your writing and I have missed the feeling I get when I just write. Amazing – 33! Looking forward to more.
So you had TWO conversations with your husband? THIS IS AMAZING! In one DAY? Ack! Have you fallen on your knees giving praise and glory to God for that awesome gift?
Because He doesn’t promise those things. But when He gives them, oh, we need to thank Him!
Gianna recently posted..My Response?
I love this. The opening paragraph is complete beauty. Thanks so much for sharing and for opening yourself up to all of us who would like to share a little slice of our lives, no matter how eloquently (or not) written.
Huge hugs to you for another week ahead of beautiful colors!
Andrea recently posted..Bazinga!
I love those long talks that you have to physically LEAVE your home in order to be able to have. Those are always the best.
Jade @ Tasting Grace recently posted..As Spotted on the Thai Side
Thanks so much for sharing and for opening yourself up to all of us who would like to share a little slice of our lives, no matter how eloquently (or not) written.
Ah, change. ‘Tis the theme of my life these days.
Beautiful post, you.
Honestly the only word that comes to my mind is calm. Everything about that made me feel rested, and tranquil. Glad that you had a good weekend, rain and all.
Everyone is saying change is constant and while I am happy to be able to experience the change with my family because it means I am alive, living and here with them I just wish change could occur at a much slower pace.
Barry recently posted..Spring Allergies Symptoms
I just “signed up” for the Just Write. What I didn’t realize is that it would go directly to an actual finished post. So, please feel free to delete my name. I will enjoy writing for Just Write and then I will post about that particular post. Sorry. Apparently still learning as I go.
Kellen recently posted..Celebrate::
I linked up to just write yesterday but I was deleted. I linked here in the body of my email, is it required to link below the post?
Anyway, you inspired me to just write, so thank you! I just want to follow the rules next time.
Jenny recently posted..Wordless Wednesday – Portland
Hi Jenny! I don’t know what happened. I’m sorry! You did just fine. I didn’t delete it. At least not on purpose! Feel free to link up again if you’d like!
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