Just Write {147}

August 5, 2014

Elsie had a fever. It came on fast, out of nowhere. She’s so strong, so feisty, a listless look doesn’t fit on her. But there she sat with her shoulders hunched forward and her eyelids heavy, her cheeks flushed. I felt her forehead and said uh oh, here we go. When she gets sick, she gets sick. There’s a good chance she goes so hard for too long, ignoring the discomfort of tired muscles, a sore throat or a headache, whatever her body is saying. That’s what most of us do. Until we crash. We do this in so many ways.

So I held her in her bed and “kickled” her back, combed my fingers through her fever-sweaty hair. I sang twinkle twinkle, her favorite. Then her raspy whisper cut through the dark,

I love you, Mama. I love you too, My Elsie.


First there was the boom-crash and then the tinkling of falling glass. Then came the split second of wondering what happened, and slowly realizing…Oh, I hit something. So there I sat with my minivan backed up tight against a birch tree, no back window and a new dent. My neck hurt. I cried. I just started to cry right away because it was time and this was the straw. No more waiting to schedule the nervous breakdown, no more putting off the feelings. Then I couldn’t stop, the crying, the mess, the pain. Remember that song? Feels just like I’m walkin’ on broken glass? That one started playing in my head and I laugh-cried because the front door of my house shattered yesterday, and all this time something was shattered and not trickling down like a waterfall all over everything, but now it is.

A friend covered the window with plastic but the van was so dirty that the duct tape didn’t stick and the plastic went flapping in the air while I drove.

Little pieces of glasses fell out from the window frame here and there. There is no end to them, and they’re so small.

Tink Tink…

So I’m driving along and I look in my rearview mirror and every single time, I’m surprised the window is gone, and I’m a little awed at how clearly I can see through what was once so full of dirt and tint.

I’m just going to drive it like this for a little while.


I walked by a boat landing, watched a man push his speedboat up to his trailer. He stood waist deep in the water and stretched his arms up to a young girl on the edge of the boat. She bent her knees, stood frozen, hesitating. His fingers motioned her to him, I’ll catch you, he said. I’ve got you, he said. She bent her knees a little more, started to put her arms out to his, then stepped back, straightening her legs and dropping her arms to her sides. She shook her head back and forth.


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