you can have mine

November 19, 2011

I told you, you can have all of mine
until I’m emptied out
just a shell of me
on the floor

someone else will pick me up
fill me up
empty themselves
to a puddle on the floor

and so it goes

6…7? billion people on the planet
what else are we to do
but fill each other up
off the floor

He said, this morning
you have such a great capacity
for this kind of thing
and you know what?
I do.

I have learned to love
because of people like you
and
there
is
nothing
I’d
rather
do.

I will fight with you and for you when you can’t and I will
bury my face in my life while you do the same in yours,
moment by

exuisitely painful

and beautiful

moment.

I will sit with my knees bent and
burning
into the ground and pour out fear
and turn it into faith because that’s what we do

when we must.
we must.

In her latest post, as Ellie described learning that she has cancer, she said, “Time slowed to a crawl; a second seemed to take a minute.  I had all the time in the world to take it all in…So this is what it’s like, I thought, to actually be in a momentJust one moment.  It’s beautiful.”

This poem-ish sort of thing is for my person, Ellie. Please visit her and give her your love and support.

{ 18 comments }

kendal November 19, 2011 at 10:32 am

this IS a poem. and a beautiful one. i hate it when cancer brings normalcy to a halt and shatters our belief that we are okay. i will visit your friend and pray for her.

Sharry November 19, 2011 at 11:35 am

What a wonderful tribute! I have left a comment on her website! You are certainly a beautiful twosome of wonderfulness and strength!

Lisa Rae @ smacksy November 19, 2011 at 12:27 pm

Loving you both.

Melissa from the Blue House November 19, 2011 at 12:49 pm

Nothing like tragedy (or the appearance of one) to discover what’s important. I love this.

Leslie November 19, 2011 at 2:02 pm

I consider you and Ellie my two online sober sisters. Both of you have written beautiful things in the face of something awful. Inspirations, both of you.

Ann November 19, 2011 at 2:16 pm

I love it when people choose words instead of saying there aren’t any. You are both so beautiful and brave for turning toward the pain.

Ellie November 19, 2011 at 2:29 pm

Oh, my friend. How I love you. Thank you for being my person. Thank you is such a small, small word for what you mean to me. Together we will pour out fear and turn it into faith.

Together.

-xox0

Jennifer@GDWJ November 19, 2011 at 3:01 pm

Knees bent and burning …
That’s the posture of the best kind of friend.
Bless you both.

robin November 19, 2011 at 3:49 pm

what a beautiful set of words for a beautiful woman. You are a good friend.

Candy November 19, 2011 at 4:38 pm

Praying deeply for both of you. We so need each other, don’t we? This was beautiful, Heather. Hold her close.

@maggiedammit November 19, 2011 at 6:07 pm

well done my love. xo

Elizabeth November 19, 2011 at 7:52 pm

love and prayers.

Suebob November 19, 2011 at 11:21 pm

Your friendship is a beautiful thing. I am glad Ellie has a love like yours to lean on in this scary time.

Christa November 19, 2011 at 11:38 pm

Beautiful, Heather.

Sending love and support and ease and peace to both of you. This one I’ve done, more than once. Lucky Ellie to have you – let me know what I can do, anytime.

XOXO

Lynda M O November 20, 2011 at 4:22 am

A tribute so loving from a friend of the heart. May Ellie find the strength and your support when she needs. I will lift her up to the Universal Healing Power which has sheltered many souls.

Galit Breen November 20, 2011 at 4:14 pm

You’re an amazing friend. This love is good. xo

Tracie November 21, 2011 at 1:52 am

Your poem is beautiful and your love so huge.

nicole November 21, 2011 at 4:25 pm

Beautiful words Heather!

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