Just Write {93}

He picked out a hip blue hat for his birthday. He asks every half day or so if it’s Tuesday yet because that’s The Day. He’s Six on that day and so excited. Asher is joy walking around and he still loves to hold my hand so much. All day today, we walked from place to place and he would run to catch up and slip that hand in mind, rubbing his thumb back and forth around my palm.

I suppose the reason new parents, all parents really, act like we’re the first ones to have ever been a parent ever, and say all the same things as each other, is because these kids really are that great. They are that exhausting and that difficult to raise and they are the only ones. Like Asher, there’s just no other boy that could ever be him and so I’m the only mother. We’re all the only ones.

He cries easily and gives things and money and treats away easily too. He is his brother’s best friend and his hair gets as white as snow in the summer. He has hydrocephalus and he is the most resilient person I’ve ever known. His fingernails grow really fast and he doesn’t like to have them cut. He hops up and down and pumps his arms up and down when he’s excited. He would sleep in later if he didn’t share a room with his brother. He is always happy to see me, even if I’ve only just left the room a moment.

He would put Lego sets together all day long every day and he always writes the S in his name backwards.

He will be six and he’ll go to kindergarten and I’m already giving him so many pep talks. His eyes get big and he gets quiet.

We let them go more and more and more all the time and that’s the right thing to do, but I want to go with. Thank God I am the one inside his daily rituals of home, to make him a nutella fold-over “with butt bread” every morning and to climb the ladder to the top bunk each night so he can circle my neck with his squishy little arms and kiss me hard on the cheek.

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