I carry you

June 21, 2009

Sunday~ June 21st, 2009

I look down and my hand is doing that thing.
It’s resting on my lap in a curve.
Resting.

Dad, your hand was just this same way. I saw it.
I’ve seen it a lot. It was sitting there looking exactly like this.

Just like Grandpa. Your Dad.

The same. Curved.
The lanky fingers that grow thicker with time.
They curve on the lap and rest.

It’s like the unconscious way I run my finger across my lip like Glenn when I’m nervous. Or how I grab the bottom of my shirt and rub my thumb across the fabric, like Helen. It’s the way I care like Elsie and understand like Colleen.

It’s the way I laugh like Sandi and cry like Kay.

Today I’m thankful that I carry you, all of you.

My family.

Today, mostly I’m thankful for you.
The man with the curved and rested hand and skin like leather
turned brown from the sun,
All the working in the sun.

The one who still says I’m the greatest
and falls in love with my boys
just the way that I do.

The man with the heart so big.

I carry my family.
I carry you.

I love you
Dad.

Happy Father’s Day.

{ 32 comments }

Kristina P. June 21, 2009 at 8:51 pm

I know I say this a lot, but this was beautiful.

Muthering Heights and Other Senseless Sensibility June 21, 2009 at 8:53 pm

What a precious tribute to your father!

Luisa Perkins June 21, 2009 at 8:56 pm

Oh, so lovely!

blueviolet June 21, 2009 at 9:01 pm

That was absolutely beautiful!

Manic Mother June 21, 2009 at 9:04 pm

Beautiful as always!

Octamom June 21, 2009 at 9:12 pm

Beautiful, beautiful, the way family shows up in our very marrow and bones.

Your writing is just gorgeous, as always~

Blessings~

a Tonggu Momma June 21, 2009 at 9:14 pm

Sometimes I read something like this and I just feel so sad for my little Tongginator, knowing she doesn't have nor is she likely to ever have that sense of continuity the rest of us take for granted.

Angela June 21, 2009 at 9:39 pm

Oh Heather, that was lovely…simply beautiful and heartfelt. You wanna hear something funny in a non ha ha way? I'm partially adopted. When I was 7, my stepfather adopted me and his mother and father became my grandparents and his sisters became my aunts. Sometimes I'll do something that reminds me so much of my Aunt Di or my Gram. I don't look a thing like them, but I still carry them. And of course I do see physical attributes in my of my mom and maternal grandparents, etc. And I love…especially on Father's Day…comparing all the similarities between my husband and our children.

Again, this was truly touching and I'm gonna pass it on.

happygeek June 21, 2009 at 10:31 pm

Beautiful tribute to your whole family.

That Girl June 22, 2009 at 12:20 am

If he didn't cry, I did for him.

Kazzy June 22, 2009 at 12:32 am

We surely are wherever we came from. Beautiful.

Mylestones June 22, 2009 at 5:09 am

Beautiful tribute, what a perfect way to honor your Dad.

Heather of the EO June 22, 2009 at 7:27 am

Angela – Thank you for saying that. I think it's more true that we repeat these things because we're around our family a lot and start emulating them. Maybe we do some things because of our genes, lots of things, I'm sure. But these small little things are so often a result of time spent. And I love that.

Wendi @ Every Day Miracles June 22, 2009 at 8:48 am

Awesome Heather. So true. I love the way we see our families in ourselves and our kids.

minnesotamom June 22, 2009 at 9:17 am

Super-sweet, Heather.

I love those little nuances of family that I can see in myself. Then again, sometimes I despise them. But your post was a good one, reminding me of good things.

Jen June 22, 2009 at 9:38 am

what a beautiful tribute to your Dad!

charrette June 22, 2009 at 10:03 am

Gorgeous. I love all those little details.

Jillene June 22, 2009 at 10:07 am

What a beautiful post Heather!!

Kim June 22, 2009 at 10:15 am

Beautiful Heather. I love when I notice myself doing things that my family members do.
Have a lovely day my friend!

D June 22, 2009 at 10:15 am

Such a touching post.

Tooj June 22, 2009 at 10:59 am

What a wonderful poem. I hope your father was able to enjoy it for dad's day. I also hope that your husband had a wonderful day yesterday. Happy Monday.

togetherforgood June 22, 2009 at 12:37 pm

This is lovely. :)

Bonnie June 22, 2009 at 1:17 pm

Beautifully said as always.. It made me think of my own Dad. We're so lucky to have such good Dad's, aren't we?

L.T. Elliot June 22, 2009 at 4:18 pm

Heather, you always make me cry. Thank you.

Fly Girl June 22, 2009 at 4:37 pm

You are so blessed to have such a wonderful father in your life all these years… and it sounds like he's blessed to have you and your boys in his! What a special tribute you've written for him!

Roban

bapa June 22, 2009 at 4:53 pm

you know how hard it is to draw a tear from an old baby boomer, we,re not allowed. You,re one of the few who have done it. Thank you. You are the greatest. Love You

Debbie June 22, 2009 at 7:50 pm

Heather, you are a wonderful woman.

H-Mama June 23, 2009 at 12:17 am

Beautiful!

Sabrina June 23, 2009 at 7:27 am

That was lovely Heather!
What a nice tribute to your dad!

sara June 23, 2009 at 11:10 am

I loved this….what a wonderful tribute to your dad! and your family!

Angie June 23, 2009 at 8:35 pm

My stars, friend! This is gorgeous. I cried the whole way through it. You have a gift. A beautiful, precious gift.

Jessica June 28, 2009 at 4:12 pm

Aw, this is beautiful . . .

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