Just Write {19}

January 23, 2012

It’s a coffee shop made from an old house with hidden nooks and rooms. It’s cold up here in the middle room. I can hear a boy and his mother in the next space. The walls are thin and I am always tuned into a child’s voice.

It’s becoming more and more obvious that they don’t just struggle here but everywhere. The mother’s voice is well-versed in soothing responses, trying to calm the boy who cannot leave the rigid confines of his concrete mind. She is kind and she sighs when he repeats over and over and over that she sucks because she won’t take him home right this second for video games. He’s loud. Louder and louder as he repeats and repeats and does not get the answer that is the only one he wants. Someone comes to close the door from another room and awkwardly explains why she’s closing the door.

It’s not just because you’re loud, we just don’t want to bother you. Her voice is all shaky with discomfort and annoyance held behind a passive-aggresive lilt.

The mother is silent to this and I hear the door close and the boy starts to say, over and over, You were loud and I am not, it’s you that’s loud, I am not being loud this is stupid stupid stupid…He pounds on the table, over and over.

I want to hug her. She has to sit there and wait it out and be quiet with no quiet, so much of the time. All I can think about are my freezing feet and her days and how she probably doesn’t even notice when her feet are cold. She is a mother of the strongest kind, because of the boy who is a gift.

{Mother Marathoners of kids with special needs–I want to hold you up.}


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